'Ask and It shall be Given'

To my mind, resting in the thought 'ask and it shall be given' accomplishes everything I desire. On a closer examination though, while steadfastedly I hold to God and the act of prayer, it reveals otherwise, that which is an eyeopening experience as well as it is a journey to humbleness.

Every desire is an experience to be opened like a door - how could my thinking process or my ego accomplish this? As I prayed to God surrendering myself so as to be fulfilled in my needs for loving relationships and so on, my desire for peace and fulfillment in my relationship (marriage) seemed so futile.

How did I ever think, that I could achieve a happy marriage, or a humble living? As I requested God with my desires, I realised this is going to be given to me through any means by God. But all I can do is become aware of my inner conflicts, and that I am in the illusory thought world - until I have the courage to live in the Truths that I pray to live in.